Welcome to my website where I want to show just some of the work I have been doing over many years.
I didn't go to an Art School so I suppose you might say that I am self taught, but what that really means is that I have loved drawing, painting and photography for a very long time and in return those subjects have been teaching me and I hope they will continue to do so.
In case that just sounds like playing with words it isn't. I have been very conscious that during the act of painting for instance, I was being taught, even shown something new to me.
That's one way of expressing it. Here's another and probably the most accurate description of the experience of 'doing'. What it really feels like is remembering. As I work I begin to remember. It's as though I have forgotten so much and slowly the memory opens up a bit more every time. I find myself doing something that to me is extraordinary and I wonder where it came from. Certainly not from consciousness. Maybe from the subconscious. But really, it feels just like remembering. But to get there I have to shut my head up and let go. I have to trust completely and let some other part of me take the driver's seat. Initially this took a lot of courage, but fortunately it's now easier.
I taught vocational photography for over ten years. By this time I was feeling the need for a greater expression than I could manage with photography. I was so fortunate to have a friend who was a life model. She suggested I would enjoy a life class she had recently been modelling at and the true journey began.
Drawing . . . it is amazing! Especially so in that particular class. The freedom I felt not having to use a camera was so liberating. I just went wild. The very remarkable thing was that the more released I allowed myself to be the better the drawings became; strange, messy, wild, primitive, outrageous and astonishing. They astonished me because I thought I couldn't work like that, yet here was the proof that I could. I was offered a part time job teaching at Brighton Poly as it was (now Brighton university) and had a fantastic time teaching my students to let go - no rules! After a few years I was chucked out as 'ideas' started to be the thing, and passion, discovery, ground breaking, glorious abandonment was definitely out. No, now you had to be a clever dick to teach.
Well it was inevitable that I would start painting. But big paintings in oils eventually brought me to my knees. I had developed an astonishing reaction to turps, white spirit, underseal, varnishes and so on and STOP! I had to. It took a few years before I could feel the urge rising, but I had to use acrylic paints and I didn't like that. But, I feel now that I wouldn't go back to oils even if I could. I love working fast and acrylics allow that. Layers can be laid after a quick blast with the hairdryer. So here I am now producing the work you see here. Not as wild as I used to be, but I believe that now I can be free of my consciousness without the internal questioning. It is what it is and that's all there is to it. Freedom!